Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:11-13 NLT)
This will probably be one of those "more transparent than I need to be" blogs, but at the same time I have to share what God has laid on my hear. This is about.....CONTENTMENT! Are we truly content? How can we become completely content? Let's start by finding out the Biblical definition of contentment.
According to the Holman Bible Dictionary it means "an internal satisfaction which does not demand changes in external circumstances"
In the context of Philipians 4:11-13 it means "the believer can be content no matter what the circumstances."
So now we know what contentment is. Again I ask are we truly content? How can we be completely content?
Here is my story of contentment. I am a self professed shopaholic. I love clothes. I've made every excuse why it was ok to shop like I did. You see I always wanted a career in fashion until God redirected my path. So it was ok to be obsessed with fashion, right? I've always said they were like pieces of art. My feel good addiction has gotten worse through the years. I never really saw a problem with it until recently. God has gently pointed out some things to me.
1. The feel goodness was only TEMPORARY! I would buy enough, but then there was that need again for more.
2. My shopping wasn't the problem (except on my bank account. Lol). My problem was pride!
You see I knew I could bring attention to myself by my clothes. Every compliment made me feel good about myself. I have many insecurities. There are times when I don't feel like I fit in anywhere or have a place that I belong. I really feel like I don't have much to offer. Clothes took away some of those insecurities. They just plain & simple made me feel good! Is that true contentment? ABSOLUTELY NOT!
Let me pause here & say is it wrong to shop (or do whatever your feel good addiction is)? No (as long as it doesn't go against Biblical principles)! Is it wrong to look nice? Absolutely not! But how you look does not define who you are or "fix" any insecurities that you have
God began convicting me about this. I began to question what people saw in me. Did they see me or did they see Christ? I want them to see Christ in me ABOVE ALL ELSE! It all comes down to that!
I read these questions in another blog today (women living well) & felt like they were directed at me.
1. What do you think about more-shopping or good works?
2. What are you most noticed for- what you wear or your kind deeds?
3. What is most eye catching about you- your clothing or your character?
So I come back to the original questions...1. Are we truly content? 2. How can we become completely content?
You have to answer number one. But I can tell you the answer to number two is true contentment only comes through Christ Jesus! I trusted Him as my Savior, but I would not allow myself to be completely content in Him because I wanted to try & fit in with others. I wanted to feel good about myself. I wanted everyone else to make me feel good about myself. I wanted people to fix my insecurities, but God has shown me He is the Only Way to true contentment.
Am I going to stop shopping? Slow down-yes! Stop- no!
Am I going to stop caring what I look like? No!
Am I going to think a lot more about the three questions listed above? You better believe it!
Do I have this battle won? Of course not! Satan knows this is an area of temptation for me so he will try & place obstacles in front of me, but this will be the thought I come back to...My contentment & satisfaction will come from Christ & Christ alone!
Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body. (1 Corinthians 6:19, 20 NLT)
P.S. Shopping just happens to be my feel good addiction. You can insert whatever you struggle with into any part of this!